Someone once said to me “you know, Oriana, life doesn’t have to be a struggle". This totally blew me away since life had always been a struggle, yet that single comment launched me onto a ladder of exploration which totally changed my life.
For over 20 years I immersed myself in countless books and teachings, and attended more workshops than I care to mention. I learned many healing practices along the way, and spent endless hours in personal process, always seeking to escape from the relentless diatribe of the voice in the head. Truly, I was the archetypal eternal seeker.
However, slowly it dawned on me that apart from forgiving myself over and over again for my mistaken beliefs and misperceptions, I had to allow myself to fully feel the feelings which I had deemed unacceptable and to welcome every element of the "human me". I also finally accepted that it was only me who had created my own suffering, and came to know that my value and worth truly are innate.
Healing can never happen in the mind. The heart has to open and the body has to feel. For me, the inner work has been extreme, and I still have times when I have to dig really deep, and remind myself that I have done nothing wrong, that I am safe, loved and supported, and that all is well.
Over the years, an insistent, inner desire for truth (a soul whisper, if you like) has kept calling to me, and fully integrating Spirit into my being has been an intrinsic part my personal journey.
I'm immensely grateful to have now found great acceptance and love for myself, and to have also found my Yes to the freedom and joy which have been patiently waiting for me all along ... and that really does feel good.
“I saw the angel in the marble, and carved until I set him free”
I'm also an artist, and the image above is of one of my recent collages.